Unbearable at times.


On Moving.

Imagine the Ocean, wide and with a certain stillness… swelling, and suddenly curling into a wave that has never before existed; although so many waves have come before it. This image is a great way to give direction to the phrase “Be the Change.” If we were in the ocean, or even if we imagine all forms of life in the ocean this very moment, we can’t as simply imagine those particles of life becoming the wave. More organically we can imagine ourselves moving with the wave, allowing an experience of oneness as this brand new form of the ocean has come into expression. By riding with it, we become the change. Both the phrase, “Be the Change,” and the imagery of riding with and not against a wave has been used countless times- but it takes the power of practicing our spirituality every day a new to truly be the change. We get a choice, often thousands of tiny choices each day, as to how exactly we will flow into and with the always expanding, expressive Universe. Choose powerfully, choose consciously, choose purposefully.

Easier said than done, believe me I know. Some changes are easier than others. For me the change of leaving Seal Beach Center for Spiritual Living has been at times unbearable. I have found myself going against the wave of change to almost painful extents. It has often felt impossible to just move gracefully as one with each passing wave of leaving Seal Beach Center for Spiritual Living. Yet in the process I have deepened my understanding and experience of oneness. I am not leaving Seal Beach Center for Spiritual Living, I am expanding my spiritual community and connections. In even the tiniest of changes made during this transition, I realize now that it is an expansion, not a retraction of this thing called Life. Just as a new wave comes in, it doesn’t eradicate the wave before it, it is an expansion of it. Each wave is an expansion of the ocean as a whole. And maybe amidst my painful and often ungraceful wipe-outs during this process there was a tiny seed of deeper knowing, consistently watered by a choice to explore my spirituality in practice, contemplation and prayer. And so it is.

One thought on “Unbearable at times.

  1. YES!! I see it this way too. I do not say good by just so long. You are not gone because I will see you again and you are always in my heart!! ❤


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